Alistair Brown wrote at 15:27 on 09 May 2010
Firstly, well done on getting funding. It sounds like you have been put in quite an enviable position - most people I know fail to start PhDs because of financial rather than academic dilemmas.
However, that's not to say that you should continue with a PhD just because the money's there. In my experience (in an arts and humanities subject) PhD study was very different to my MA dissertation.
Whilst the research skills you learn for the latter are important, the first year of PhD is not so much about applied research as scouting out the field. There is a lot of reading involved (and I guess for the sciences, preliminary data collection and experiment design), and is quite a different experience to a dissertation where there is a comparatively short span between starting out, researching, and writing up.
Think about which specific aspects of the dissertation you didn't enjoy. If you did not enjoy reading, and find it hard to be interested in the work already done in your field, then I imagine it will be similarly difficult to start in your PhD. On the other hand, if you love your subject and have all the research skills but find it a struggle to write up your findings, there are a lot of ways you can set up work so as to accommodate this over the long period of your studies, e.g. by training on speed writing, by practising in different fields (e.g. writing for a student newspaper), or by doing a little a day for three years.
You don't just do a PhD like an exam. You start off totally at a loss and gradually evolve into it over the course of three years. When I started, I found it very disconcerting to realise that despite having gone through 4 years of undergraduate and masters study, I still did not really know that much and was not the finished product in my field.
I am continually amazed by how much I've done and how much better (but not perfect) I am in the skills required for my subject. Going through this experience is certainly worrying - and you have every reason to be anxious at this stage; but it can also be exhilarating and rewarding. The funding bodies and your prospective university must think you are going to be able to achieve. Perhaps have confidence in yourself and realise the worry is ultimately a productive driver for your future work.









